No Thanks

Sometimes it feels like there is all this pressure to get a boyfriend or a girlfriend. I mean you see it everywhere, and yeah it's cute and yeah sometimes you get a little jealous and think "why can't I have a relationship like that?" And then I remember, those relationships most likely aren't God given. So you know what? No. I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want to "know what you're talking about someday", because when I get a "boyfriend" it won't be anything like your relationships. He's going to come to me when I'm good and ready and mature enough to handle it and so is he. He is going to come to me when I am confident enough in myself to not lose my identity in him or put my everything into him. The only place you should put your everything in is in the arms of Jesus. I don't want to have any "complicated relationship[s]" my friendships are already complicated enough. I'm too busy finding myself right now to want to go and make it even harder. I don't believe you're supposed to date so you can "find out what kind of boys you like" because guess what? God is going to give you someone you don't ever have to worry about. Someone who never lies, never cheats, never makes me feel less than what I am, lifts me up, he'll give me the person I've always wanted. I want to fall in love once, I want to have my first kiss, my first "time" and my first children with ONE GUY, and I want to do it right and I sure know if he does make me cry, I'm not going to be wasting my tears. Once I do find the one I know I'm never going to have to worry about divorce, what God gives lasts forever, my trust is in him and he will provide someone worth waiting for, and someone who has been waiting for me.